Eight months after we break up. I still think about us.
Our past, every scene i have been through with you, flash back.
The time when i'm in Malacca, one of the local trips we went together back then. Do u remember?
I went back to the same river we spend our night. The moment when we took a stroll near the river, the light breeze on our face, and you holding my hand tightly. those day; those moment.
Now, i'm at the same spot gazing into the river, questioning myself what's wrong with me. Why did i let this precious relationship slip through just like that.
Every now and then, i look through our pictures, emails you've send. I smiled, and think back the start of LDR, we have hope for our future, we held on tight with our beliefs.
Now, i couldn't even talk to you normally. Because, thats not possible.
Eight months later, you've found another girl. She works in the same cafe as you. i guess, she would have understand you better in your current situation.
Just before, i talked to my friends, she told me that you've bought a t-shirt from her blog shop on Valentine's day. It's for the girl isn't it?
Within eight months, you've managed to find another girl! WOW! congratulation!
But i guess, you have lose every one's respect from this.
6 years worth of relationship just went down the drain. Like this.
All the promises we had, all the plans we had for future. It has now shared with another girl. All the places we wanted to visit, it will only happen with her.
I feel violated, i felt betray, i felt lost.
It is scary to experience this emptiness. Imagine the memories you used to share has been replaced with a new person. Someone who will be doing what you did in the past. Meeting the parents, sharing your day, exchange the things that's done in a day. It's creepy.
All i can say is, i now finally see the other part of you. It could be good that i'm experiencing this with you at this stage. To know what kind of person you could be. I'm sorry to say that i didn't see you as such person back then. But probably, work and all your surrounding people makes you thinks that it's totally fine to act in this manner. I hope she gives you happiness i couldn't give you, I hope she supports your dreams and goals, i hope she would be your best friend, your listener, your soul companion.
