Current State

I probably didn't thought that there will be readers still from this blogs. But apparently, YOU surely did read my previous post of me scolding and expressing all my hatred to the ex.


 Oh well, i'm grateful of how things has end and it has certainly lead me to better outcomes.
U know the saying, some goodbyes lead to greater hello.
at least i'm aware that i don't think of the past as much, i'm aware of what could other people offer, so much more. I've always felt lucky to have different people expressing their care and love towards me. Pampered much i would say! And to you who's reading this, THANK YOU!!!!
I wouldn't be me, at this jolly state without your support.



I have a good feeling about this year! it's gonna be great and filled with work, good relationship with people who loves me and lots of positive vibes!

Looking forward to travel to China, Japan, Spain & Portugal, and hopefully Boston!! :D :D ;D

Hope you all have a great year and stay positive! <3

8 months after.

Eight months after we break up. I still think about us.
Our past, every scene i have been through with you, flash back.
The time when i'm in Malacca, one of the local trips we went together back then. Do u remember?

I went back to the same river we spend our night. The moment when we took a stroll near the river, the light breeze on our face, and you holding my hand tightly. those day; those moment.

Now, i'm at the same spot gazing into the river, questioning myself what's wrong with me. Why did i let this precious relationship slip through just like that.

Every now and then, i look through our pictures, emails you've send. I smiled, and think back the start of LDR, we have hope for our future, we held on tight with our beliefs.

Now, i couldn't even talk to you normally. Because, thats not possible.

Eight months later, you've found another girl. She works in the same cafe as you. i guess, she would have understand you better in your current situation.

Just before, i talked to my friends, she told me that you've bought a t-shirt from her blog shop on Valentine's day. It's for the girl isn't it?


Within eight months, you've managed to find another girl! WOW! congratulation!
But i guess, you have lose every one's respect from this.
6 years worth of relationship just went down the drain. Like this.

All the promises we had, all the plans we had for future. It has now shared with another girl. All the places we wanted to visit, it will only happen with her.

I feel violated, i felt betray, i felt lost.

It is scary to experience this emptiness. Imagine the memories you used to share has been replaced with a new person. Someone who will be doing what you did in the past. Meeting the parents, sharing your day, exchange the things that's done in a day. It's creepy.

All i can say is, i now finally see the other part of you. It could be good that i'm experiencing this with you at this stage. To know what kind of person you could be. I'm sorry to say that i didn't see you as such person back then. But probably, work and all your surrounding people makes you thinks that it's totally fine to act in this manner. I hope she gives you happiness i couldn't give you,  I hope she supports your dreams and goals, i hope she would be your best friend, your listener, your soul companion.

Sweat and swear skytrex

So, it's my second week to skytrex, Taman Pertanian Shah Alam! 

Last week was merely cycling but, it certainly took up more energy than I expected! It's TIRING!!! Nevertheless, it feels good to be able to sweat so much! Reminisce the good old high school time of doing sports! 

Moving on! This week!  A total of 5 of us proceed to the advance level of obstacles. 

Pure Trill! 

There's less flying fox as compare to the beginner level one. We were the last group of the day as there's only few slots throughout the weekend. 

Let the picture do the justice!   

The beginning of the trail 

Trembling my toes!

I think, there's chicken exit is not needed for you :X 

If you're lucky, you might be able to observe some monkeys, lizards, squirrels and monkey poos! :p

分手后

分手后， 想念你， 可是却很无奈的逼着自己别想了。 已经没有挽留的机会。 以为我会多么的坚强。 结果叻？ 并没有😔

雨天

前天的大太阳，在今天躲起来了， 也不知道为什么自己的心情也被影响到， 所以 我真的需要在此发泄一下。 从tram 一下车， 哗的一声， 雨下大地看不清路。 身上又没带伞， 又没帽子。 被淋雨的感觉， 如果说你是和朋友， 和喜欢的人一起淋， 可能是喜悦的，浪漫的，开心的。 但我，此时此刻 是一个人， 那无比的寂寞呀～ 有时我真的觉得自己很可怜， 自己犯戒， 为什么要一个人出国， 为什么倔强 不接受别人的好意， 都是自己苦了自己。 你活该啊！ 当你自己在外头吃饭的时候， 看见别人3，5 朋友成群。 内心是无比的羡慕。 是我耐不住寂寞还是， 人都是这样的？  看上去， 朋友好像很多， 但在关键的时候陪你的，少之又少。 要嘛住的太远，要嘛就很忙， 没空陪你。
此时更能看透人事物。 更清楚知道自己需要什么。
我要变的更勇敢！

tulip darling

It's the yearly visit to Lilydale for the tulip festival! This time, i manage to visit with my housemate! It takes about 2 and half hour drive from city.  Not too far i guess if you've got a car.  The scale could be small but i think overall it's a good experience to explore the place! 

   Tulip came all the way from Holland and this festival last for 4 weeks! :) these darling are pretty durable aren't they? Hopefully they manage to survive through the strong wind and thunderstorms! :) 

I guess what matters till the end of the day would be, going with your love ones. 

I've found an article that human being love to share the good/ queer things that they see in their lives with their love one. The  precious sharing moment could be short but the memories last for long.

As much as i want to share all this with my love ones. Neither of them are here. So, i could do, is just taking pictures and share it through whats app! hehe.. :) I've still got another 2 more months to go till i'm able to get back to Malaysia. I just can't wait for it. To be with families, friends and my love ones once again. PMS causes homesick which leads to being emo. sorry for that! 

Hope u have a good weekend! :) 

Lunch @The Grain Store

Hi pumpkins, 

Sarah came over for the night, we decided to head for lunch at the Grain store for lunch after my work. :) poor thing gotta wait till 2pm. Must be awfully hungry at that time! 

I dash to Grain store right after im done with work. Walk pass it a couple of times! Silly me! I tend to over look these hidden shops rather often! so, gotta be aware of hidden shops more next time! :p 

The modern, sleek outlook! Me likey~ IF say, I've got a chance to open up my own cafe back in Malaysia. I would wanna have something that look like this! An open space that's welcoming, warm, and spacious! 

The wide range of coffee 

A panoramic view of The Grain store. Pretty rare to see this amount of people.. Say if u come during weekends. It can go crazily crowded.   

My chai latte! :) It's been quite sometime since i had Chai. Absolutely smooth and rich in flavour! this makes me wanna try their coffee in my next visit! :) 

My Honey Poached Milawa Organic Chicken ($19)    Chicken was sooooo tender! and i love the crispy beetroot. The flavour might be a lil over powered by spices. But it's alright for me! 

Sarah's free range pork belly sandwich! there's spiced cauliflower, sweet and sour cabbage with chili marmalade. ($20) 

like what Sarah said, u never go wrong with pork belly if you cant decide what to eat. Don't u hate it when you'r so spoilt with choices and had some hard time to decide on what to eat? hmmmm.. Wonder what can we do to get that improved? 

Wooden floor. feels like home! 

Dessert:  Lavandar and Buttermil Panna Cotta. (Poached pear, early grey, salted pepitas, SUGAR BUBBLES) $12     I LOVE IT! 

presentation: 9/10 

            taste: 7/10

Just feel like a little girl hopping around when u first taste the smooth panna cotta! :) 

It's such a shame that we can only try the lunch menu. I've heard that the breakfast menu have got more extensive choices. Ricotta pancake~~ I will be there for ya soon! :) 

Great company for this lovely afternoon! :) 

I'm grateful to have friends like this! 

Till then, 

Xoxo